FELICIA'S BOOK - BEGINNING PHRASE

FAIRY TALES OF SEDUCTION, LUST AND LOVE BY FELICIA MCCAW

This book has been a work in the making and a joy to compile while taking my trips to the Casino with Dream Travel Solutions. During my times of not winning I whiled away the time with pen and paper and wrote away and traveled and enjoyed my own imagination as well as lurid and creative talent of fantasy and fantastic scenes of love and lust to thrill the soul, mind and body.

This book is dedicated to my parents Major W. and Mary A. Barnett, Lucille and Charles Miller (my Grandmother and Grandfather and dearest mentors), Daisy Jackson (my Aunt and second mother), Claude W. Thomas (Uncle), Robert Earl McCaw, Sr. (Stepfather) and Robert Earl McCaw Jr. (Brother), Valencia L. McCaw (Sister), Chester and Valerie L. McCaw (Brother and Sister-in-Law), Nicol McCaw (Niece) and her children Shomari McCaw (Great nephew), Imani McCaw (Great niece), Isaiah McCaw (Great nephew), Brenda J. McCaw (Sister), Jeanette McCaw-Mitchell (Sister), Wilma D. and Wilhemina McCaw (Twin Sisters and babies of the family), Willie and Patricia Jackson (Uncle and Aunt), Beatrice Hamilton (Aunt) and Nute Scott an older gentleman and friend of my mother and father that we knew forever who taught me a lot on how to survive and the trade of the flea market and my family physician I have known for an extensive time Dr. Chidozie Ononuju and consulting doctor Dr. Peter Smith and my supervisors Dr. Bobby Ann Robinson and Dr. Lee Martin; Dr. William John Pittas

Also, I cannot leave out the owner of Dream Travel Solutions - Orlandis Ellison, Sr. (Friend), Orlandis Ellison Jr. (Friend), Paul McCallum (Friend) and lost love of my youth and heart Charles W. Casey who passed away at a young age and his parents (Thomas W. and Tissurene Casey) and family and all my teachers I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for encouraging me. I received an uncommon education blessed in itself a blessing from public schools of Morley Elementary School, Central Junior High School and Saginaw High School that gave me my base and love of reading and going to school and I continued on to Saginaw Valley State University, Delta College all located in Saginaw County and Strayer University of Washington, D.C. which allowed the continuance of my desire to dream dreams of making a difference one day.

Further, I thank all the inspiring people I have met and interacted with during my times of work, travel, playtime and have had the privilege to speak to and learn of other’s culture, pride, morality and dignity they are entitled to and know that an education is the only true way to fulfill the soul to cherish all that makes a person who he or she is. I will always love these people and encourage them and others to dream big small big and make it despite the odds against you…keep trying anyway God’s is still in everybody’s plan.

Special Acknowledgment to teachers of who assisted me: Mrs. Annette Craig at Morley Elementary where I was a student teacher's aide there, Mrs. Gloria Ludbom, Mrs. Rosa Winchester, Mr. John Pratt, Coach Marshall Thomas, Mr. Robert Frost, Mr. John Schumacher, Mrs. Eva Ivananko, Mrs. Ola Peace, Mrs. Helen McArn, Dr. Jones at SVSU, Dr. Lee Martin and Wife, Dr. Kevin B. Robinson, Attorney Leek, Ms. Joann McArn

Further my thanks to West Point and Brown University who inspired me to upgrade my thinking and learning to compensate for what I needed to get in school and make it. I wanted to go there bad but I was not ready educationally or mature enough at that time ... I believe I can make it now. I have a few little thoughts of my own on education that I will reveal to the world soon.

---------------------BEGINNING PHRASE OF MY BOOK

Hello, my Name is Felicia McCaw and I am a continuing student who is studying to be a writer and learn what life has to offer and watch and observe people in everyday settings.  My field of studies includes the phenomenal field of psychology, special education and any field that interest me.  What is life without an education?  I cannot possibly fathom that I could exist without knowledge to provide substance as in bread and meat to a starving man.  But with an education the pen is mightier than a sword drawn, quartered and used and allows a person to be free of constricts as well as allow creative genius.  Art, music as well as upper level thought cannot be forced into confines it has to be left free and allowed to live.  This is the epitome of myself and please allow this as an introduction to myself.

Thank you.

Felicia

PETER AND HIS SPEAR

Days of wonder prevailed by none of sight and seen
Peter Peter being of sweet sexuality sensuality looked neither right or left
Strutting with strides emphasizing muscular detail flexing biceps he flowed
Grinning with teeth of brillant white he spied three females of luminating glow
Hair skin form of proportioned incredible sweet his eyes wondered inch by inch of sweet leisure
Hooking muscular arm around slim form of feminine luscious warmth he kised all with erotic flicks of tongue over lips of petal
Peter throwing his leonine head back laughed uproariously deeply in throat of strong
Stroking curls with square hands of strength he preened before eyes of admiration full
Loudly professing his eternal love he stroked figures of full with hands of hungry heat
Exuding savoir-faire he kissed palms of three before grasping the hair of one in tight command saying we play we play the games of lust and thrust
Disappearing behind curtain of beaded delight he ripped as wolf the clothes from fervish form of heat
Clinging tights as if the wind had her mind she gasped his name over over as tremble rocked her soul as he suckled with thrist of many
Lips coasting down flesh of sweet dew he coaxed response of organistic earthquake as he thrust upward impaling her on shaft of sugar hunger
Peter covered he fully and begin the rhymic rock of to and fro until she whimpered deep saying please please please
Smiling with satisfaction he held her close chasing quake after quake of inner trembling sweet fire as it consumed him whole
Curling her close he sighed with contentment and ordered next By Felicia McCaw

FELICIA'S DAYS OF INVESTIGATIONS REVEALS THIS AMAZING QUIRK IN HUMAN NATURE

Newsflash Newsflash read all about it! Read all about it! Well today's investigations in the attack of mass people against Felicia McCaw reveals in today's sojourn that people of the most astute has revealed astounding results. Imagine a city filled with such jealousy, hate, reverse discrimination, discrimination, bigotry, viciousness has revealed that the whole City of Saginaw has its panties in a knot filled with hate for her...what did this person do to all these people in this quaint not "colloquial" place of former manufacturing plants, blue collar and dirt. Main mission is to steal her reputation, good name, debase her proper speaking ass, kill and destroy and make her totally unable to function in society because they think they are better than everybody else and let us say that the mental deficit are at large and we all want to get in line and let them progress this country further and produce all these wonderful facilities that would involve the hideous chore of actually going to a job and working for a living instead of being a f. parasite on everybody else and saying foul things about this one and that one because we suck as a human being and is nothing but an overfilled balloon full of shit and hot useless dumb m.f. air with no brains to compose anything but a turd to put in a toilet.

Feminine Odor is the insult from the pair of pants that we have skittling around trying to say they are a man and that my course work is the thoughts of a quote on quote a "man". Imagine that these parrots are never going to earn a cracker for the thoughts of highness that are making this country great...great balls of fire...I am overwhelmed being such a pea brain and all that I cannot possibly be content with a stupid piece of shit that will not leave someone alone in peace because they have a supposed piece of a. that has no stank in their own tail etc....read all about this...they will lie and say they never said such shit in their life. Being deliberately goaded is their key...and to lie to the end...is their goal and guess what we all admire them for their deceitful ways and I love to play these games because I don't have to worry about the obnoxious actions of people who ways of rudeness is ingrained as a characteristic trait. Imagine that the next insult is that a n. just does not bathe anyway and that is why all these wonderful insults and assertions are being bandied about by brainless people of wits that even a pea can out distance. GUESS WHAT TO SAVE THEIR OWN S. ASS THEY SAID ONLY ONE PERSON STANK AND ONLY ONE PERSON DOES NOT BATH...IS THIS THE WHOLE WORLD OR DID SOME EINSTEIN TAKE A SURVEY AND CHECK EACH DICK AND BITCH? FURTHER THE ONLY THING THAT FOULS THE AIR IS ON MY SITE A LITTLE EARLIER BUT YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME DISCERNING INTELLIGENCE TO READ THROUGH IT ENTIRELY TO FIND IT. I HOPE YOU MAKE IT. NO m.f. woman is so foul that the air is tainted unless there is a serious medical problem and I have yet to find her...if I do I will let her know to seek medical attention immediately. CLUE. EVERY SO-CALLED B. HAS ENOUGH SENSE TO THINK FOR HER M.F. SELF AND DOES NOT NEED YOUR PITIFUL POORLY EQUIPPED MATICULATED BRAIN TO WORK FOR HER AS WELL AS LABOR FOR YOURSELF. I KNOW SOME OF THE B.s that are harassing me...flat stanky s.o.b. I LOVE YOU M.F. I AM FAMOUS AS HELL AND YOU HELPED ME GET THERE. HA! HA! HA! HA! DIRTY STANKING B.!!!!!! I LOST MY BABIES DUE TO THIS SHIT...YOU NO-GOOD B. I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL. I WILL MAKE IT ANYWAY...I HOPE YOUR ASS GET JUST WHAT YOUR FOUL M.F. WORKED FOR....TALK ABOUT YOUR OWN BITCH BETWEEN HER LEGS OBVIOUSLY NOT CLEAN SINCE YOU ARE THERE. BEING CALLED AN APE BECAUSE OF YOU IS NOT A JOKE OBVIOUSLY YOU DESERVE THE TITLE YOU ADHD M.F.

In our fair City of Saginaw is illegal meetings of clandestine nature hell bent on destroying everyone black especially myself being accused of plagiarism....great gracious I don't know what I would do without the help of such sad specimens that make a person say yuck...and m.f. it anyway...because they repel the eye and thoughts of anything anyway. Keep your ugly self to your self...unattractive ugliness inside does not make the heart fonder for a facade of what handsomeness does and that everyone just does not appreciate. Any black person who sees themselves as not a N. with any intelligence is under severe scrutiny, resentment and hate is not safe. I have heard it threw at myself...she knows too much...she reads too much...she is supposedly prejudice against all when she is merely repeating a comment she heard...and saying to herself imagine that...working with them and being called every s. bitch they can think of with sour ass and f. cunt. I don't know what the world is coming to...I just won't deal with these kind of people who are shall we say their own cheerleader squad...no one is shaking a pom pom for your ass...I am ashamed of my own family except a few who are trying to better their life and are being presently rehabed by myself if I have to knock it into them to make them to leave this trash alone because low bred shit is a loser anyway it goes and will always be a loser f.kr. anyway.

If a woman won't give up the cunt...she is attacked and everyone is told that she smells like any obnoxious scent in the world that a man can't and won't tolerate because he would rather be dead than smell her motherfucking stank filled tail. She cannot fight because they are ganging up on her and are the ruling class who says their word is absolute and law and uses their own band of useless illiterate flunkies to execute a self destructed plan to destroy her and any competitive talent she has that is housed within her ...be the brainless b. we want you to be and shut the f. up is the attitude that I see in today's world and mine too I am tired of being pulled in to help defuse this shit. Leading the foray is our most illustrious city of people that feels that their touted position in society gives them the power needed to be used to suppress one disabled woman because their wits are slow as hell and can't keep up.

Now she is supposedly seething with prejudice when obviously anyone with deductive thoughts understands that this site is not for individual people to try to take over and confiscate because Felicia's has a big mouth that she is desperately trying to keep close...these contents are mine and not for male dominance and she feels no brains means no output. Which means buzz off with this s. and insults ... she is tired of these lazy dumb people following her and attacking her with slander, slurs and insults and the rudest shit of all time is being uttered out of these so-called elevated sweet smelling females mouths. I have no problems with a.holes or suck ups to make sure they don't get treated in the same shitty fashion but I have to say this crap is old....as a dried up piece of unwanted...etc. I am glad to say we have some true turncoats who finally learned a few words to insult someone way out of their league.

Future updates coming up soon as I learn more.

By Felicia McCaw

JANE EYRE

A POETIC TRIBUTE TO AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A VALIANT YOUNG WOMAN OF UNREKNOWN FEATURES WHO FOUND LOVE IN THE MOST UNEXPECTED PLACE.
(Author - Charlotte Bronte)
Jane of quiet, timid unremarkable countenance forthright questioning all left in care of stepmother of bias due to unpardonable favor towards children of more singularly attractiveness contend with numerous quests for solitude she eluded the company of ill-behaved boors of sibling clash she hideth in places sought far
Bullied tormented by an apparition of sad remark he struck her continually with abuse of none correct
Plaqued as if questing her stepbrother demanded what book readeth you as if you deserve the privilege wrenching from her grasp striking her fiercely with blow of harsh to incite an injury cut of deep bled
Defending herself with fierce revolt she resisted the lies of foul assault of character trampled many
Despairingly referred to over over she heard recriminations she should be good good otherwise death follows a swift flight unstoppable
Being continuously chatised beaten she received the cruelest thrust to tender heart exile
Enrolled at impoverish school for orphans of female she survived the direst of charity, cruel harshness of too severe punish and lack of nourish day after day time excelled rolled by as miserable as a prison term of life
Fantasy Fantasy went by of escape escape a life of tenous tideous boring frustration endless endless days of rigid control control to kill the soul
Letter of light receive the heart pound pound with expectation expectation of adventure adventure of of new life to start before
A Lord A Lord to be my employer for position of nanny of angel sweet today today is the day of freedom air cold crisp fog heavy with volume of sound couch swaying bucking to its own beat it flew miles miles casting by as the sound of free
Dusk to Dawn Dusk to Dawn time portrayed all the sin of none but clear arrival of castle cast in outlines of lines etched in sky of dark
Door opening free of noise soundless as whispers large greeted she by servants all sleeping as no sound exist Jane slept within feathers of comfort bedding of no small cost
Waking to small noises within room of sleep she met little mademoiselle of charge she be asking with voice of soft shy she enquired name of moppet with curls of large soft black as she stroked light as tender
Adele is my name I am from France dancing singing is my life teach teach me all to please my papa of dearest to my heart
Meeting Lord Rochester with eyes of huge stars of wonder she gazed gazed in love of fast with heart flying
as birds sing
Days went into weeks of busy bliss teaching being courted loved Jane walked on air of roses cushioned surrounded by Lord Rochester's love
Night of storm crashed thundered hard the wind flew as if alive with fists hard banging as the very banshee from hell was roaming moors of cruel cold
Lightening flashing flashing with play of Pan in sky of black azure outlining the horrorific screams that carried the night as thunder crashed echoing echoing each eerie eerie scream that waked the dead to run hide play
Madame Madame stop stop screeched the servants servants watching her running wild with hair atangle atangle she raced through halls of dark screaming screaming until caught holstered restrained
Jane crying with tears of large fear gasped with hand atop heart of uneven beats staggering under truth of knowledge packing valise of small to leave escape until no thought remained in head of whirl
Misery Misery carved both faces of fate cruel stroke of cards playing false against love set against fate life fortune it boded sad the channels of time
Fire Fire Fire they cried the house the house Madame has set the house atorch with hell's teeth biting ferociously hard fiercely deadly the blows
Servants Servants running here there they cried save her save her Lord Rochester's feet flying fast as hell's light ran up burning stairs
Beams of burning fell crushing him as he screamed help help help water of buckets of many crashed against him storming him as the flame cooled dried spiralled freely breathing sigh sigh
Crying Jane's name he rolled writhed in pain for days days melting into weeks as his love traveled the air time to reach her
Waking in night of dark depression Jane awoke with heart pounding putting hands over ears that heard her name called over over Jane Jane Jane Jane
Screaming Lord Rochester's name Jane ran ran into the night gasping with cold sweat running down back with goose pimples rippling her skin
Packing clothes rapidly Jane called for coach coach rushing rushing to her love Lord Rochester assist
Reaching castle Jane leaped free with flying feet calling his name name until she curled arms of love around form of strong hurt whispering I love I love
By Felicia McCaw

TWO FACES OF A SISTER

Seeming a face of love that has deceit hidden and buried far inside
Strange though the life of sorrow match they portray all to world of spite
Reveal to all the sin of covet contrite is a fool parody of mockery that
indeed shows the eptimome of good taste
Inexorable is indeed the chase of gain not worked for and deceitfully misused is the worker who toil toil relentlessly
Nebulous gesture supposedly innocent are serpents of treachery wound deep around hear of unsuspect
Creeping slowly slowly is fate fate that bode evil evil against all despite the
spoken word of combined
Capricious nature as well as stone that speaketh as well as fractious thought that kill
Repining their lot in life continously as if a mill has turned flowed ever more ever more until all thoughts are smooth away
Gathering alert is the view that perspicacity is what foils the plot of true unsteady a people in thought, deed, immoral accounts of false against others left right
Demarche Demarche running fast against tide of attack for many to destroy one and repudiate the word of God
Factious is the thrill of chase to misery misery destruction destruction goal after goal achieved to end selfish tides of one all
Vibrancy Adamantcy is the resisting factor against the trite chase of illiteracy that grates as a thorn in paw of small large
Far be for controversy to be stirred incontrovertibly it is indeed inevitable that contrast forwards a pace against comers of charge
Unfortunately, although inextricably a bond has never truly existed but a that uncover a lie lie lie of deceit deceit that render distrust deep of all
By Felicia McCaw

FELICIA'S THOUGHTS OF PRESENT

On solemn days as the night turns I sit on my porch speculating about the fate of a country I feel unwelcomed in. A country that has turned it's back on me because I do not fit the mold or stereotype of what is perceived as an African American. My pain and sorrows are deep as an affliction that I cannot heal becaue I am accused not frontally or formally but by allegations that will be hidden and not given a chance to defend myself becaue they feel that they can take advantage of a person that is ill.

My points and stances are attacked, my speech and elocution is ridiculed and jibbed at and the very essence that makes me is hated just hated and I don't know how to mediate it so that everyone black or classified as African American is not victimized in my fight for my rights to be treated as a human being.

The first thing they do is to try to further debase, degrade, humiliate you and that is to attack me by referring to my looks, supposed lack of knowledge of hygiene as listed in the movie (President Jefferson's referral to Negro smell) which they still use as a basis to put black or African American people down which has no credence since all people have some kind of personal odor or they would not be using tolietries to correct. Anyway, this movie speaks despairingly and condescends about the cleanliness of a negro's nether parts and does not speak of any others because of the sad lack of soap for everyone as evidence by continuing to go out amongst the people the problem is evidence in other races as well and in very significance and notable. Imagine that we as a people are physically stripped and humiliated publically before anyone and just pummeled half to death by savage people for no reason no reason at all and they act like some unrestrained animal that has been loosed upon civilized people due their wanting to let their lust fly free upon our men, women, teenagers and make a good decent woman look like the lowest shit in the world as long as their sins and problems are hidden.

I have no idea who these people are I live a life of a reservist ... I do not participate in all the lewd conduct of the young and lecherous old because they are too worldly and love to sin. I am aware of what exists and foul manner they conduct themselves and that this behavior is not seen as a sin. Because of this treatment I feel dirty as hell mentally, physically, psychologically, interactive notable is restricted and just fed up because this was done with deliberate intent to soil me and kill my children and leave me "tore up" as I heard one of the good ladies exclaim with joy.

These people think it is okay to lie on someone and not suffer the consequences and that it will not affect the many. Just imagine that all these people know who I am and know that I do not participate in criminal activity but because I am black I am treated as an animal as a beast with no feelings or thoughts to support who I am. I am being sexually harrased at the grand old age of fifty isn't that incredible because I like to dance and sing and evidential damage to my back is perceptible by MRI scans and additional injuries to the neck etc.

No Justice is What I See ... No Rigts in this Land....Nothing but the suffering for naught and the secretive movements of a country gone mad on attack of anyone black who stands for self or rights. All will be sternly denied and lie on lie on top of lie will done to save their own foul ass.
Suspected treachery at casinos...deliberate tampering of games have been complained about and caused decreases of customer attendance but will once again be stated as a lie a lie and as ridiculous but obviously faulty software will be the reflective problem not the sticky fingers at the keyboard behind the scene. I think something is indeed rotten in Denmark and we all know what it is and due to the amount of sessions played this obviously allows the advantage to know when the games should go into bonus sessions and this is obviously not what is happening due to the odds reflected.

Further because I am a squeeler or whistle blower I suffer attack after attack ... verbal defamation of character to physical abuse internally because I tell I tell I tell. I can't let it go. I am hurt emotionally, physically, psychologically with no way to right this wrong but to tell my side. No one wants to hear the truth.. :( These are just some of the ugliest acting people in the world and they deserve to be treated as the most evil incarnation that has ever been allowed to exist on earth. They are the ones who stink ... stink ... ugly acting shit.

We are all human to have children and none of us unfit...Do you hear me? I am not ignorant and ignorance is only a brief space of time that can be easily corrected and one thing I hate is people to lie on me and throw allegations that is surely the shingle of shit to hang on their own head. Go figure now everyone is better ... even the lowest homeless person is being scrubbed to death to say even he is better than me and others.
I hate this person who put this filth out about me. They are talking about themselves...I do not associate with anyone trying to destroy anyone and don't care for this destructive behavior...everyone knows they are lazy, lax, loath, come from roach infested homes with dirt rubbed in the floor as well as their ass and will not work for a crumb of bread and never for a slice at all and is a clear misfit themselves in society and do not wish to see this country succeeed. Any hardworking student is a damn target and we are all tired of this scrub of shit coming on campus fucking with us so we can't live and study in peace. I was going to say I wish he was dead who started this shit with me but I want his miserable ass to stay alive and suffer. Too fucking bad.
:) :) :) M.F.U. Felicia

MARY AND HER LITTLE LAMB

Dark blue the sky rotated wide far with stars of circles triangles
Hills of green ran soaring soaring long far as the eye beheld tomorrow
Mary her little lamb played count the stars of universe circle of cascading colors
Running they raced with wings of Jupiter fleetly evading each other tag and play
Catch me Catch me cried Lambert kicking his hind hoofs together quicks
Laughter bubbling on air of heavy curling shells that riveted the most melodious music showered the sky
Catching a furry round bundle of soft white fur of winter she cuddled her face in fur sweet heather
Rolling tumbling they chuckled with glee until stars glistened large white large
Finding a lake of sweet clear water of purple refresh they drenched thrist of ferocious
Picking cherry berries they ate one two three until replete with flushed contented happy
Casting a wish upon star of Jetson they magically appeared at home at door keep
By Felicia McCaw