My Fight with Breast Cancer with God as my Rutter

My steps with God and cancer has carried me far in life and throughout. Being brave is indeed one of the steps I try very hard to be and is the ambition of others. The pain and loss of emotional feeling is called numbness for we cannot believe that it has happened to us.

We are grateful for life and a chance to make a difference before we go and see this as a another challenge to face despite the pain that we go through as passages of a window glass frosted with frozen tears that carry prayers to our Father to keep those we love dear and safe for our gratitude is to our Lord God for letting us live this long.

Survival for ourselves and others is tantamount to climbing a mountain high high high in the sky for we want to leave something behind that we tried we tried we tried to make a difference to enrich, bless others and ask God to forsake us not as we pray, we pray and endeavor always to strive forward.

I am taking this as a step a step to understand our purpose and it involves love, care, compassion and sympathy for those who hurt deep in their soul and as God lives and breathes those who help those whose soul flutters like a fragile butterfly inside will always be kept close to my heart in prayer forever saith the Lord.

Today and tomorrow the torch is burning bright with ambition to beat breast cancer and our journey together will always commemorate our burning challenge to free womanhood of this burden and hurtful affliction.

A burden that affects all women, men and the psychological thumping we all get mentally as we look at our partner with hurt, trauma, sheer pain, numbness, disbelief and fear goes through our mind as we look at each other and say why. Sometimes we just close up and down to see if we are going to make it or if we are just imagining it because we don’t want to leave no one behind hurting and missing us.

Having a goal is a plan and a plan are thoughts to change a so-called disaster into a positive ion that rotates around negative electrons and fizzles soft then bright and becomes productive as hell with the excretion of raw energy.

I want me and others to be the epitome of a Grade A survival that will and can do all things through Christ and God who strengthens me and them.

Amen.

I love you all.

Felicia McCaw

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