FELICIA'S REQUEST TO SVSU

Here is something close to my heart..when I got sick I had to totally withdraw because I became sick and was intimidated by the hate exhibited towards me at SVSU. I am giving this presentation as my side of the matter in defense because I did nothing to no one but was subjected to scandalous rumor after another that caused me to progressively become ill (sexual harassment) and the thought that if I responded I would be killed because they were white people attacking me...therefore I tried to sue but was cursorily threw away like rubbish because all of the slurs hurt my ability to go to school in peace and lodged people against me so I could not continue to go ... because I became ill with nervousness and suffered anxiety attacks I left (withdraw totally).

What would you do if you were me? Would you kill yourself or try to get someone to help you because you know your role in your family and that is to help and assist my remaining living parent as much as I can.

I still want to sue because I am bitter, unhappy, don't trust no one and am suffering hurt throughout. Do you think I have a chance to sue? I am just embarrassed as hell and shame is dripping off me everywhere I go and I am seeking professional help so I can make it. It's no fun being the world's kick bag.

CURRENT PRESIDENT

Dear Sir,

Ever has it been a dream of mine to finish college and be exposed to higher learning and concepts and theoretical touché’ and accomplishments.

I am a student who is black who left Saginaw Valley State University because she felt physically threatened and started to become emotionally troubled by the treatment she received at Saginaw Valley State University.

I have never felt so disappointed in my life to know that in this time and day that a student of any race or age could be denied an education. I still have the need to express myself to you now because I have had all kinds of jeers, sneers, contemptuous taunts and unkind remarks thrown my way.

When I think of the most illustrious contemplation of learning include all of God’s children whether they believe in God or not. To me Jehovah is the light of my life, soul, flesh and love of my heart and I want to thank the good Christian people for keeping me safe. I am humble so humble in my thanks that I am still alive and my faith is high high but even I fear a mass of people who would hurt me…I am but one but my Father is all and I am clinging to him with all my strength, sorrows and burdens have I testified as the woman in the bible but none is like you Jesus and walked away with Joy as she touched his shoulder.

I am her for I look look and grow angered for they still care not for God and his son and his edicts and lust for bloodshed, coveting and harming children and grown.

When will they understand I am just peace and see God in all and try to give all a chance whether they believe in God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit or nothing but self. I am a living testimony that he lives and loves me and all. I am really trying to forgive forgive and help these people for they understand not the trouble and danger they have put us all in.

Forgive me but I have become saved and I love God, my parents (4) and family even though the rocks thread the net heavy with anger and bitterness.

I hope everything is better at Saginaw Valley State University for I left so none would suffer for my being on campus. I did not want to be the catalyst and cause of racial hate toward black people for once violence is exhibited towards us…no one black could attend college without fear for their lives and the next race then the next until none would come that is not Caucasian.

Finishing college is still my love, desire, crave for something forbidden is the sweetest of nectar that leaves wine a pale apology behind.

In conclusion to this narration, I wish to relay that I have breast cancer and had surgery July 7, 2015 to have it removed and I am wondering is there anyway to get my official transcripts because all I want to do is all the good I can before I go and going to Strayer and Western Governor’s is my choice to finish the Special Education Program and I feel it would grant the chance to be more competitive educationally worldwide and disallow “so-called” retard classes and merge them in regular classes which will allow them to have a chance to learn in a different pattern to carry a “C” average.

Approach I feel that is needed is not systematic repetition of guidelines they do not understand and do not comprehend. To them a book is foreign and it is a hostile apparition that looks back and intimidates and causes resentment, anger, hate, antagonism, sociopathic and violence towards those who assimilate well to over excellent.

I cannot come back to Saginaw Valley State University for the threat is almost tangible and makes me ill therefore I am requesting the balance outstanding to not be held against me and my official transcript be released to me and Western Governor’s and a copy to myself and the balance waived.

I hoped for monetary compensation or classes to finish my degrees but have received no answer therefore based on parallel laws governing student loans for students suffering a life threatening illness. Therefore, I am requesting a cancelling of debt outstanding due to no fault of my own and which were affective from outside uncontrollable unknown sources. My quest is to devise a theoretical revamp and reconstructive pattern to relearn and teach in differential manner.

Please consider my request for cancelling of debt and forward official transcripts to Strayer and Western Governors.

Sincerely,
Felicia McCaw

Petals On The Wind

Drifting slow fast they called Harmony

Flutter Flutter listen to my sweet melodic song

Thrilling all with each turn they circulated free

Simple and ease was the promise they made

Motion to motion careered the thought they exist

Thoughts of free was the escalated beginning of start and end

Tomorrow we begin to be Petals on the Wind

By

Felicia McCaw

Sin

Ethereal delight as warm as candle’s burn

Talking free of all with skin of rich chocolate

Slithering all around it played cajoled once again free free free

Eyes of bold roved free of restraint as they toyed incessantly

Thoughts of forbidden cackled I be I be for I am not a regret

Inviting hands drifted restlessly played cajoled until fruit of desire became free free free

Willing willing to tease played cajoled until succumbed to witness sin

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Felicia McCaw

A Robin’s Smile

O Father I have seen a smile of pure

Little sweet it caresses the eyes of sweet Jesus

Looking around curious all it grows grows as clear and deep as rainbow’s heart

Giggling giggling free it travels content throughout

God’s kingdom touching each face with sugar blossoms

Happy content it looks at all above and below with sweet benevolence

Seeing a soul despised hated it gives a pleasure of joy to see their all be justified and mercy granted

O sweet a robin’s smile is the sweetest joy and kindness of all

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Felicia McCaw

Dark Castle

Mystery swirling like a simmering kettle of a brew unknown

It stood straight with dark evil menace daring all to enter

Teeth clenched tight with ferociousness savagery growled deep in its soul

Daylight cursed as it battled with night became its welcoming call to seduce the innocence bequeath

Laughter wild with screaming pain echoed the halls night day

Slamming doors of snap looked askance at all who dared to come

Creaking floors giggled come anyway inside come anyway inside and play for leave you won’t today tomorrow ever they say they say

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Felicia McCaw

Ode to Orlandis

A mystery I have found with many turns and rounds

Riddle Riddle I have made for me and thee to protect us from foes and players of the circle of the sphere

Tips and clues have been given for the alert astute and non-forsaken

Riddle Riddle I thought my mind would whirl around loose loose not I for I friend I claim in thee

Caring and sweet I find you to be and my heart and soul appreciate you free

In the site are clues clues for I said a cat claw’s has done this mess and around you is its force and I am watchful of threats and measures for I value you safe

Tickle Tickle goes the clock for I have not acknowledge it fret it none for time has begun

A spider is the thrift for it knits all day long and a web of seduction is its game and danger is its name

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Felicia McCaw

Little Petal

Glimpses of lashes flutter in air of gentle wind

Hair of silken black sweet graced a head of small elegance

Black eyes of molten silver perused all with curious

A nose of straight with small arch leveled with flair of

Neck of slim swan bowed with grace to her Father’s word

Obedient with scholarly pursuits she played the lute with fingers of nimble quick

Her Father’s heart she knew well her place she be

Looking with eyes of wonder she progressively say we evolve the world and sigh yes happily

Nimble quick she graciously bespeak praise to all and contributor of her time with remarkable tolerance

Loving with loyalty she stands with her husband through all

By

Felicia McCaw